隣の芝生は青い、というように『毎日充実してそうですね』なんてよくお声を掛けて頂きます。
もちろん、たくさんの優しい人々に支えられて、おかげさまで濃厚な毎日を送っております。
濃厚、と申しましても勿論、幸せと呼べる日もあれば、自分の不甲斐なさに落ち込み、空しくなる日もありました。
その辺りは、件のお言葉を下さった方々と全く同じ境遇ではないのでしょうか。
自分がハッピーかそうで無いかなどは、主観でしょう。
大好きな薔薇の季節が終わりを告げ始めました。
私は、枯れていく薔薇も好きなのですが、やはり私をたくさんしあわせにしてくれた彼らがまた秋まで姿を消してしまうのは、恋人との別れのように寂しいものです。
夏へ向けて、薬膳酒を漬けたり、旬も終わりかけの苺をジャムにしたり、小さなベランダに朝顔の鉢を並べて緑のカーテン計画を立てたり。最近は時間があれば仕事の合間にそういう息抜きをしています。
勿論、薬膳酒などは勉強の一環ではあるのですが、やはり私は手仕事が好きです。
みなさまの初夏が輝いた日々でありますように。
As they say the grass is always greener on the other side, people often say to me that I've been living every day to the fullest.
Of course I've been supported by many sweet people and because of that my every day is satisfying and happy.
"Satisfying", I said, but surely I had days I can say I'm happy, but also I had days I was ashamed by myself and felt empty inside of me.
So, probably I'm no better than anyone who said I'm living my life the fullest to me.
Either you say you are happy or not is subjective.
My favorite rose season is about to saying good bye to me.
I still find wilting roses beautiful, but they made me so happy while they were here, and now they are leaving me. I'm sad as if I'm saying good bye to my lover.
For summer, I prepare medicinal liquor, preserving strawberries which is about to be out of season, and putting morning glory pots to make "a green tapestry" in my tiny balcony. Whenever I have time between works, I do those kinds of things to have some fun lately.
Of course, those things are a part of studying such as medicinal cooking. However, I love handiwork.
Wishing you all brilliant early summer days.
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